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Sunday, November 10, 2013

The Mother & Child


Heather Baker—the main character in the original fairy tale The Girl Who Couldn't Singproduced a CD, The Faith of a Crucified Child, and a DVD, My Name is Heather Baker, Welcome to My World.

Today, I wanted to share a special clip from the DVD and a special mp3 from the CD. 


In today's DVD clip, Heather shares her belief about the sacred relationship between a mother and her child.



Although, Heather follows no particular religion, her faith in a higher being—that she often refers to as god—saturates her fundamental life philosophy.

In the song, A Mother's Prayer, Heather approaches that higher being, heart heavy with guilt from years of denying her relationship with her mother, at the behest of her father. Although she was very young, when the initial rejection occurred, her feelings of guilt—logical or not—are very real.


mp3: A Mother's Prayer


As a result of acknowledging and expressing that guilt, Heather experienced a deep healing. Reborn from that experience, her ultimate message is one of triumph and joy.


Read the rest of her hopeful story

Friday, November 8, 2013

My Name is Heather Baker, Welcome to My World


In 2005, Heather Baker—the main character in the original fairy tale The Girl Who Couldn't Singproduced a DVD.

My Name is Heather Baker, Welcome to My World is a fresh, irreverent journey into one woman's psyche.

Get links to songs from the original CD & full DVD in the book
 
Feeling out of place, but determined to make sense of it all, Heather uses different voices to chronicle her inner excursion, and we are invited along for the ride.

Whether it's dealing with darker fare like her mother's mental illness, quirkier subjects like her interest in astrology, or her obsession with the story of Seabiscuit, Heather uses her depth of insight, and zany sense of humor, to bring us all along with her.

The end result: We all enjoy the trip.

The DVD features several previously unrecorded songs: The Deep Blue Sea, Time and You, Broken Dolls, She Never Dyed Her Hair, and The Beach.

In this first clip, Heather introduces her multiple personalities, and discusses her ambivalence about her inner journey.



Perhaps, she's ambivalent about her inner journey, because troubling things lurk in the depths…

mp3: Modern Day Art




~ Excerpt  ~

Once upon a time there was a woman who didn't smile. She lived with a stern frown etched upon her face. On occasion, fleeting delight would catch her--like a doe in the headlights. Her lips would curve upwards, or she'd find herself unable to stifle a laugh, and someone would inevitably pronounce, "You have a beautiful smile."


She would pass the palm of her hand over her face, erasing all signs of glee, and grimace for the rest of the day in devoted penance, because life was a vale of tears and suffering, especially for women. That's what her Bible said, at least--and the misogynists.


The woman wasn't a particularly young woman, nor was she a particularly old one, but she wasn't quite middle-aged either. A late bloomer, with the planet of Neptune conjunct her Mid-heaven, she had a hard time distinguishing between fantasy and reality…


The three short stories, The Girl Who Watched for Elves, The Girl Who Dreamed of Red Shoes, and The Girl Who Couldn't Sing, chronicle the journey of a girl who believed in fairy tales and are a prelude to the Once Upon a Time Today collection.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

The Faith of a Crucified Child

Heather Baker—the main character in the original fairy tale The Girl Who Couldn't Sing—released her first CD, The Faith of the a Crucified Child in 2000.

Read her hopeful story and
Get the link to mp3s from the original CD in
A Short Story: The Girl Who Couldn't Sing
#28 College Music Journal Chart, CMJ Issue #704!WOBC, Oberlin, OH, March 2001
As good as the best goth releases out now!WSHL, North Easton, MA, March 2001
Good beats. Very pretty voice. What a picture! KCFV, St.Louis, MO, March 2001
I like Heather's voice! Definitely a unique sound.WDCE, Richmond, Virginia, March 2001
WOW! Modern experimental techno sound. Unique vocals!WMHC, South Hadley, Ma, March 2001

~About the CD~
Heather Baker has produced a unique CD of musical sounds & textures, that takes the listener on a ride, to what seems like other worlds, far far away. Like Dorothy's Emerald City, Heather Baker's world is wherever we want it to be, in a dreamy land far beyond our daily lives, or up close and personal, touching us deeply inside. The synthesized sound scapes are the perfect vehicle for her haunting vocals and lyrics. Refreshingly honest, they portray the emotional complexities of real life. There are no easy answers here, in fact there are no answers at all. Heather's musical journey is one that you must hear to fully understand.


Read her inspiring story and
Get the link to mp3s from the original CD in
A Short Story: The Girl Who Couldn't Sing

Track Listings:
1. Stop the Chain
2. Remember the Pain
3. Your Little Girl
4. Modern Day Art
5. Red
6. The Divorce Song
7. Bitter Blue
8. Full Circle
9. A Mother's Prayer
10. New World
11. Martian Woman
12. The Faith of a Crucified Child
13. You Didn't Win

Man. This album is nothing if not intense. My initial reaction to this CD was reminiscient of the Seinfeld episode where, after listening to George unload his darkest secrets, a stunned Jerry pauses, takes a step backward, and says "good luck with all THAT."

I will admit up front that I'm not a huge fan of electronica music. I typically find it too sterile, too repetitive, often too self-indulgent. Or was that jazz? (j/k!). What I am a fan of, though, is the computer and the opportunities and access it has afforded artists such as Heather to express themselves in ways not possible less than a decade ago. I guess we have Beck to thank for that.


It is against such backdrop that I review this CD.


The subject here is clearly and unambiguously divorce, specifically the havoc that divorces can wreak on children. It's honest, it's brutal, it's in your face. Maybe a little too honest. More on that later.


First, the music. As an earlier reviewer noted, Heather's voice is very reminiscant of Dolores O'Riordan, and in fact, the music itself is somewhat Cranberries-esque. At times the arrangement steps over the voice, at other times the opposite. I could personally do without some of the odd phrasings, but she doesn't go overboard. The voice is there, and it has a lot of potential. The artist bio noted that Heather put down her guitar "out of respect to all the guitar players much more talented and gifted than herself". Apparently, she doesn't consider herself to be a worthy musician, at least not as far as the guitar is concerned. While I've never heard her play, I would respectfully suggest that she reconsider this decision or at least find one of those "talented and gifted" individuals to work with her.


But enough harping about the music - the lyrics are clearly the star here. As noted, Heather holds nothing back. These are some tough words to listen to, and they must have been doubly tough to write. Certainly not every divorce is quite this painful, but anybody who's been through one will recognize the lies and betrayal inherent in the process, while anybody who hasn't will be glad they avoided it.


But my main criticism of this album is that Heather is almost too literal, almost too precise, in her language. A little subtlety or ambiguity is not always a bad thing, particularly when delving into a subject this heavy. This will come, I think, with Heather's growth as an artist. I look forward to her next effort— Woodrow Call, Music Reviewer


Read her Happily Ever After Story and
Get the link to mp3s from the original CD in
A Short Story: The Girl Who Couldn't Sing


Photography © Jennifer M. Kiger

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

The Girl Who Couldn't Sing



When life gets tricky, Heather Baker meditates on fairy tales.

She can't sing... Yet.


But, maybe, with:

  • A few more voice lessons, 
  • A music degree, and
  • Enough practice, 
Heather Baker's dreams of becoming the next indie singer/songwriter sensation will come true.

Enticed by Neptune, the planet that rules everything hazy and glamorous, and dogged by Saturn, the planet that rules obstacles and eveything practical--she bounces between fantasy and reality.


Which planet will win?

~ Excerpt  ~

Once upon a time there was a woman who didn't smile. She lived with a stern frown etched upon her face. On occasion, fleeting delight would catch her--like a doe in the headlights. Her lips would curve upwards, or she'd find herself unable to stifle a laugh, and someone would inevitably pronounce, "You have a beautiful smile."


She would pass the palm of her hand over her face, erasing all signs of glee, and grimace for the rest of the day in devoted penance, because life was a vale of tears and suffering, especially for women. That's what her Bible said, at least--and the misogynists.


The woman wasn't a particularly young woman, nor was she a particularly old one, but she wasn't quite middle-aged either. A late bloomer, with the planet of Neptune conjunct her Mid-heaven, she had a hard time distinguishing between fantasy and reality…


The three short stories, The Girl Who Watched for Elves, The Girl Who Dreamed of Red Shoes, and The Girl Who Couldn't Sing, chronicle the journey of a girl who believed in fairy tales and are a prelude to the Once Upon a Time Today collection.


Sunday, November 3, 2013

The Fairytale and Fantasy in My Three Worlds

As the three short stories—The Girl Who Watched for Elves, The Girl Who Dreamed of Red Shoes, and The Girl Who Couldn't Sing—that serve as the prelude to my new Once Upon a Time Today collection, are being released, I wanted to share my three worlds: The one for The Daughter of Light, the one for the three short stories, and the one for the Once Upon a Time Today collection. Each is distinct, and purposeful, to their particular stories.

The Daughter of Light Trilogy
The Daughter of Light cosmology is the most complex of my worlds, and includes the mortal and enchanted Worlds. The mortal world is real, it's ours, and it spans hundreds of years. The enchanted world is hard-core fantasy. All made up. However, I used the borders of time and space, between the two worlds, to shift time. While things in the series are always "present day" in the enchanted world, any creature from Faerie can travel to any time in the mortal world—as long as that time has already been lived and/or is currently inhabited by mortals, i.e. creatures from Faerie cannot travel into our world's unknown future. The hitch is: creatures from Faerie cannot travel back in time. Once they've traveled to a particular point in history, in the mortal world, they can't ever travel back to a prior period in human history. So time between the mortal world and enchanted world is fluid—to a degree.

I wrote it that way because The Tale of Melusine (which the entire series spins off of) is a 14th century French fairy tale, but I didn't want Melia's forays into the Mortal World to be strictly historical. I wanted her to be able to visit more contemporary times. So while Melia and her sisters visit their father in Ireland in the 1300s, and her older sister, Melusine, marries and lives with a French nobleman of that time in Half Faerie, Melia also travels to the early 1900s to find Gabriela in Texas, and to find Lola in California in 1998 in Half Mortal, and will, finally, enter our present time, in the last book in the series, War & Grace. Then, there's that nefarious character obsessed with bringing the twenty-first century to Faerie in Half Faerie

I'm a huge fan of The Lord of the Rings. To give us verisimilitude, Tolkien wrote his Middle Earth historically. It's a time period that existed, but it's in the distant past. I also wanted to create a sense of verisimilitude in The Daughter of Light, but I decided to create my enchanted world parallel to ours, existing in tandem with Planet Earth.

In creating my enchanted world, and the faeries and creatures that live there, I did a lot of research about faeries. I didn't like a lot of the traditional faerie lore. It didn't suit the faeries that I wanted to write about, so I decided that most faerie lore, as chronicled by mortals, would be recognized as fictitious, by the creatures that inhabited my enchanted world.

For example, in the mortal world, Melia's older sister is the famous sister—the legendary Melusine—but in the enchanted world, Melia—and her younger sister—Plantine steal the show—and for very different reasons. Plantine, because she triggers an apocalyptic event, and Melia, well, Daughter of Light is her story… so, sorry, no spoilers!

The Girl Who Believed in Fairy Tales
The three short stories in The Girl Who Believed in Fairy Tales that comprise the prelude to my Once Upon a Time Today collection are set in our world. You will find places in them that actually exist! Austin and Houston, Texas; San Diego and Escondido, California. However, they are written as fairy tales, so you'll also find overriding elements of symbolism and archetypes, in the references to the tarot (The Girl Who Watched for Elves), astrology (The Girl Who Couldn't Sing), and other fairy tales (The Girl Who Dreamed of Red Shoes).

The Once Upon a Time Today Collection
Finally, in the this collection, the world is also our world, but it's a timeless one. Therefore, in that collection all locations will be created ones, i.e., you won't find Hollywood, but you might find Glitter City (Beautiful Beautiful). These stories will be retellings of fairy tales drawn from the oeuvre of Hans Christian Anderson and Brothers Grimm. There will be no real world references. In Half Mortal, Jade belts out an Alanis Morissette song, but there will be no such name dropping in the Once Upon a Time Today collection. Although, you will find smartphones and the internet.

I created these three worlds in different ways for a reason. In Daughter of Light, I wanted to blend imagination and reality, to the highest degree possible. In the three short stories, I wanted to spin reality into a fairy tale. In the novellas, in the Once Upon a Time Today collection, I wanted to create the timelessness of the classic fairy tale, but with a contemporary sensibility.

The Numinous Moment
All in all, I'm always seeking that space between human and divine, ego and Self, conscious and unconscious, imagination and reality. In my own life, the moments I've lived in those spaces, have been the most numinous. (Numinous meaning spiritual—sorry, I had to use that word, because I just love it, and because it has the sense of shimmering and light those moments possess!)

Those are the moments, the opportunities, and the possibilities, that I strive to create in all my work.
Thus, my three worlds, and the sense of magic and enchantment in each.

Friday, November 1, 2013

The Girl Who Dreamed of Red Shoes


Synopisis:
In A Short Story: The Girl Who Dreams of Red Shoes a young woman searches for something to feed her deep spiritual hunger. Bavarian Kreme donuts and M&Ms only make the void worse. After weeks of binging, she dreams of her spirit floating through a large mansion, disconnected from her body. When she comes across an audiobook exploring an old fairy tale, she can’t resist buying it. As she listens to story of The Red Shoes, she experiences inner shifts that awaken her to the possibiliy of a renewed spiritual life.
~ Excerpt ~

Once upon a time, there was a young woman who’d lost her way. She knew her home address, and she knew how to get there, so she wasn’t lost in that respect. At night, she would have dreams, and in those dreams she would wander a cream-colored mansion infused with golden light. It would seem as if she was floating or flying, more like a ghost than a person. When she would have occasion to look in the mirror, she would start, because the person in the reflection looked nothing like who she felt herself to be… and so her dreams showed her: her spirit was disconnected from her body, hovering close by, but nonetheless lost to her daily reality.


And you wouldn’t think this would be a problem, since she was aware of it. Perhaps it would be an easy thing to coax her spirit back into her body, but in fact, it was not.


The young woman and her spirit had been disconnected for years, so even though they were familiar to one another, they weren’t really acquainted. Besides, the girl didn’t want her spirit to return to her body. She’d decided a long time ago that flesh was a dangerous place for spirit to live, so she made sure her spirit never felt welcome or comfortable inside her.


Yet, the young woman suffered from longing. The longing persisted, even though she pretended that it didn’t…